The last word

Why do some people always and I mean always have the last word. Is it a competition of some sort?? Not for me, well not any longer. I have friends that are reluctant on always having the last word. It's like it's imprinted in their DNA or something, it really annoy the hell out of me. Maybe because I'm trying so hard not to have the last word and that's why it's bother me or that I have realized that it doesn't mean that you have won the discussion by having the last word everytime. Actually it is a bit pathetic to think of it. If that is the most important thing you need to have in every discussion, argument and so on, well then I think you are deluded. It's a lot easier to say okay we disagree in this, just drop it and go on with your life, I really believe that you are better off and able to be a much happier person.

So finally I have come to terms with what I feel on everything that happened. So this is how I feel, nothing more and nothing less...

For me it's been a turbulent couple of weeks cause of me breaking away from a long time friend whom I have really liked and respected. Much has happened and I came to the conclusion that this person rather hurt me then admit to doing something wrong even if this is not the way this person see it at all. According to him/ her I all I do is hurting her/him by not doing what this person want me to do, though I have no idea what it is. I thought I was supposed to do want I want and not do want everyone else want me to do. So I think it in some way became a joint decision to not be friends any longer. Funny thing is that I'm not sad that we have become so estranged that we can't be friends right now, I mean how hard is it not to have a lot of expectations on your friends??? Less expectations is better I think, Why?? If you have lower expectations you properly get more surprised if someone do something you haven't expected which is a positive thing. You will be a lot more thankful to this person. It is much easier to be negative and think less about someone who is close to you just to be able to find faults and to bitch about them. Well if you are a good friend whom wants the best for your friends you accept people for who they are, not who you want them to be.